over the last couple of months, i have been busy and free... work has been inconsistent. that is not a bad thing... but it's given me a lot of insight about how we spend our time.
ask any man on the street what is most important to them... their reply will be family, friends, work and the list goes on... but how often do our replies reflect the way we manage our lives?
if we claim that family is the most important aspect of holistic living, then are we spending enough time at home? are we doing enough at home?
just this week, i got myself into a mess... well, i decided that the mess needs to be cleared up because it involves someone important. how important? important enough for me to set aside an hour to doing something for the person in question.
what about you? i challenge you to take 5% of your daily time to love someone important, be it family, friend or partner... makes a world of difference!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
JJ林俊傑／蔡卓妍 ~ 【小酒窩】MV
JJ林俊杰／蔡卓妍 (阿SA) ~ 小酒窝
词：王雅君
曲：林俊杰
（JJ）我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
（sa）幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
（合）小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
（sa）幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
（合）小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生整完成的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
decisions...
i have decided...
1) to place my dad before anyone or anything else...
2) to devote myself to doing well in my career...
3) to be the friend that all my friends deserve...
4) to let the past live in the past and not attempt to recapture that which is history...
1) to place my dad before anyone or anything else...
2) to devote myself to doing well in my career...
3) to be the friend that all my friends deserve...
4) to let the past live in the past and not attempt to recapture that which is history...
Friday, May 29, 2009
new pants or new shoes?
Q: should i wear new pants or new shoes tomorrow?
A: new pants! you don't need new shoes cos i'll carry you to wherever you want to go...
aawww... major mush...
A: new pants! you don't need new shoes cos i'll carry you to wherever you want to go...
aawww... major mush...
Thursday, May 7, 2009
i should be a prophet!
so i received a letter from the authorities about a parking offence... in my mind, i was all ready to appeal and stand my ground about how unprofessional and a whole lot of other things it is...
then i scrutinized the freaking letter to find that they used the entire backpage to inform me of the nine ways i could make payment... granted that there was a number for enquiries (but like every good gahmen agency, you will be placed on hold and made to listen to annoying music)... not a single email or word about how one could argue their stance...
very very disappointing... how typical of the local authorities... you are wrong until you can show that you are innocent... i used to be proud to tell people that i am singaporean... slowly, i'm not so sure anymore...
anyway back to the prophet bit, i was like... maybe i should go to the website and look up a relevant email that i can write to... well, that email does not exist... exactly what i predicted!
this little episode is going to turn out very interesting...
then i scrutinized the freaking letter to find that they used the entire backpage to inform me of the nine ways i could make payment... granted that there was a number for enquiries (but like every good gahmen agency, you will be placed on hold and made to listen to annoying music)... not a single email or word about how one could argue their stance...
very very disappointing... how typical of the local authorities... you are wrong until you can show that you are innocent... i used to be proud to tell people that i am singaporean... slowly, i'm not so sure anymore...
anyway back to the prophet bit, i was like... maybe i should go to the website and look up a relevant email that i can write to... well, that email does not exist... exactly what i predicted!
this little episode is going to turn out very interesting...
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
work rant... (part two)
an example of the kind of shit that i have to live with...
Hi Edwin
Many thanks, once again, for all your excellent work with the team. I know you are keen to work with the students this Friday and I very much appreciate your commitment to DOS. I have now made alternative arrangements for Friday and will be happy to stay in College while you work with the debaters. I would suggest, however, that 4 hours training immediately before a hard Saturday of debating is too long and would ask you to finish by 5.00 pm.
guess what? the top teams (namely acjc, rjc, vjc, hci) all train like there is no day or night... 4pm to 11pm daily for a month during competition season is not uncommon... you did freaking drama, how would you know what is too long? have you ever been a competitive debator?
I think it's important that we try to stick to our published schedules, both from the teachers' perspectives as well as the students'.
yes! your schedule is important... the students as well... hmm, i think we are missing out the coach here...
I am keenly aware of the criticism from last year,
criticism? show me! no one complained when we beat vjc... no one complained when we made it to top eight! no one complained when one of the speakers made it to top twenty speakers and got shortlisted for national team selection! no one complained when i transformed four non-debators into competition speakers! screw you and your criticism!
and do not wish parents of students to be caught unawares by last-minute practices.
the students have been warned of the commitment levels when they were selected and they have been told to clear it with their parents. in addition, i have never held students back against their wishes. if they want to leave early, they can.
Obviously the last-minute effect also applies to teachers in charge who often have other plans during the evenings.
hey, look here! i have two debate competition teams and one school for drama. i offer you extra trainings because the demands are much higher. do you not think i have plans too? do you not think i have to cancel MY plans just so that i can make time for the teams?
I have asked S***a to keep us informed about planned activities, and P***r, A****n and myself will be happy to work within these plans so long as we are given sufficient notice.
you freaking find out that you are through to quarter finals on tuesday morning, i tell you we need the extra training on wednesday. is there sufficient notice for me too? there are three of you! there is one of me... guess who is at the losing end?
Cheers
F U!
N**k
go to hell... and bring your other two imbecile friends with you...
Hi Edwin
Many thanks, once again, for all your excellent work with the team. I know you are keen to work with the students this Friday and I very much appreciate your commitment to DOS. I have now made alternative arrangements for Friday and will be happy to stay in College while you work with the debaters. I would suggest, however, that 4 hours training immediately before a hard Saturday of debating is too long and would ask you to finish by 5.00 pm.
guess what? the top teams (namely acjc, rjc, vjc, hci) all train like there is no day or night... 4pm to 11pm daily for a month during competition season is not uncommon... you did freaking drama, how would you know what is too long? have you ever been a competitive debator?
I think it's important that we try to stick to our published schedules, both from the teachers' perspectives as well as the students'.
yes! your schedule is important... the students as well... hmm, i think we are missing out the coach here...
I am keenly aware of the criticism from last year,
criticism? show me! no one complained when we beat vjc... no one complained when we made it to top eight! no one complained when one of the speakers made it to top twenty speakers and got shortlisted for national team selection! no one complained when i transformed four non-debators into competition speakers! screw you and your criticism!
and do not wish parents of students to be caught unawares by last-minute practices.
the students have been warned of the commitment levels when they were selected and they have been told to clear it with their parents. in addition, i have never held students back against their wishes. if they want to leave early, they can.
Obviously the last-minute effect also applies to teachers in charge who often have other plans during the evenings.
hey, look here! i have two debate competition teams and one school for drama. i offer you extra trainings because the demands are much higher. do you not think i have plans too? do you not think i have to cancel MY plans just so that i can make time for the teams?
I have asked S***a to keep us informed about planned activities, and P***r, A****n and myself will be happy to work within these plans so long as we are given sufficient notice.
you freaking find out that you are through to quarter finals on tuesday morning, i tell you we need the extra training on wednesday. is there sufficient notice for me too? there are three of you! there is one of me... guess who is at the losing end?
Cheers
F U!
N**k
go to hell... and bring your other two imbecile friends with you...
work rant...
after two years of hard (and heart) work, pushing the teams into top eight... we are one of the five schools that stayed in top eight... so i can safely say that we are one of the top five debating colleges in singapore... i am ready to leave everything behind and move on...
why?
i'm disappointed... the students don't seemed at all interested or motivated to put in any quality in their routine training. yes, granted that the main competition season is over, but that does not mean that we just rest on our laurels and not strive to improve... second week in a row, i have heard nothing but trash on the debating floor... pure crap! to think that each team had competition speakers on them... debators that i invested my sweat and blood into... yet the material they offer is shameful... what did i do wrong? what happened to the passion and love for debating?
i'm disillusioned... ever since the three stooges took over, nothing has gone smooth. i have to train my team like some underground spy force. they want to claim the glory but are unwilling to put in any effort to better the society... i receive emails with no word of appreciation but dripping with undercurrents... why do i even bother? i should just view the whole thing as a paying job... do what i need to, then scoot... like someone commented today, it's ironic how someone from acjc is putting in so much effort and the teachers cannot be bothered... yes, save your own skins and your little behinds... after all, that's all you care about anyway...
time to start afresh, at least i know that i can whip teams into shape in under two months... sometimes love just ain't enough...
why?
i'm disappointed... the students don't seemed at all interested or motivated to put in any quality in their routine training. yes, granted that the main competition season is over, but that does not mean that we just rest on our laurels and not strive to improve... second week in a row, i have heard nothing but trash on the debating floor... pure crap! to think that each team had competition speakers on them... debators that i invested my sweat and blood into... yet the material they offer is shameful... what did i do wrong? what happened to the passion and love for debating?
i'm disillusioned... ever since the three stooges took over, nothing has gone smooth. i have to train my team like some underground spy force. they want to claim the glory but are unwilling to put in any effort to better the society... i receive emails with no word of appreciation but dripping with undercurrents... why do i even bother? i should just view the whole thing as a paying job... do what i need to, then scoot... like someone commented today, it's ironic how someone from acjc is putting in so much effort and the teachers cannot be bothered... yes, save your own skins and your little behinds... after all, that's all you care about anyway...
time to start afresh, at least i know that i can whip teams into shape in under two months... sometimes love just ain't enough...
Sunday, May 3, 2009
thoughts... diving deeper...
swiftly, the month of may has descended upon us... so much has happened...
parties, gatherings, swine flu, new friends, new faces, new events, new stresses, new challenges...
2009 has been nothing short of dramatic... the road ahead is a blur... do i like it? no! am i going to attempt to embrace it? yes... am i scared? you can bet your last dime i am... there are just too many uncertainities... sometimes i question a little too much... perhaps really, i should just take one day at a time...
what's the year been? routine i guess... the so-called exciting and random life that one would expect of a freelance is settling into a pattern too... stability is good... boring is sometimes safe... done too many dangerous things... made too many reckless decisions...
note to self: slow down... enjoy each moment...everything will be fine...
ten years ago, i was passionate... on fire to make a difference... ten years later, jaded, cynical and somewhat too comfortable in a mould... in church-speak, i need a breakthrough... how and where? so help me God...
parties, gatherings, swine flu, new friends, new faces, new events, new stresses, new challenges...
2009 has been nothing short of dramatic... the road ahead is a blur... do i like it? no! am i going to attempt to embrace it? yes... am i scared? you can bet your last dime i am... there are just too many uncertainities... sometimes i question a little too much... perhaps really, i should just take one day at a time...
what's the year been? routine i guess... the so-called exciting and random life that one would expect of a freelance is settling into a pattern too... stability is good... boring is sometimes safe... done too many dangerous things... made too many reckless decisions...
note to self: slow down... enjoy each moment...everything will be fine...
ten years ago, i was passionate... on fire to make a difference... ten years later, jaded, cynical and somewhat too comfortable in a mould... in church-speak, i need a breakthrough... how and where? so help me God...
Friday, April 24, 2009
thoughts...
met up with a lot of different groups of people over the last couple of weeks... a lot of exchanges, updates and just idle gossip... heard stuff, found out stuff... some good some bad...
just set me thinking about a lot of things that are happening around me...
sometimes i think too much... sometimes i don't think at all... so how?
to think or not to think?
things that i am thinking of...
1) masters
2) dragonboat
3) career, or the lack of it
4) lifestyle / expenses
5) relationships
i want to take a book... sit on a field and just read, then be able to go into a room and have an interesting conversation about it... i miss studying or rather, i miss the experience of learning... the world has far too much politics and powerplay... a bit more than what i can handle...
perhaps running away for a while would really help... sigh...
just set me thinking about a lot of things that are happening around me...
sometimes i think too much... sometimes i don't think at all... so how?
to think or not to think?
things that i am thinking of...
1) masters
2) dragonboat
3) career, or the lack of it
4) lifestyle / expenses
5) relationships
i want to take a book... sit on a field and just read, then be able to go into a room and have an interesting conversation about it... i miss studying or rather, i miss the experience of learning... the world has far too much politics and powerplay... a bit more than what i can handle...
perhaps running away for a while would really help... sigh...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
confessions of a workaholic
i have been asking myself lately... do i really enjoy what i do or am i doing what i enjoy? it is a bit of both really...
i am glad that my time these days are divided neatly between coaching debates and drama... really, it's been so far so good... *pat on my own back*
both my competition teams for debates have gone into quarters... meaning they are top eight of the entire pack... that's very very good for me... cos it has not been easy...
my drama students are ever so endearing... i think i have been overly cranky and snapping at them a lot this year... *reminder to self* must make it up to them... they have been screamed, yelled and ranted at... i would hate me if i were in their shoes... that said, the team had a great showing at their first ever syf (mine too!)... hope all goes well...
so what's left for work?
drama-wise... got to execute work plan for second half of the year and also plan for 2010
debates? broaden the pasture... really hope to take on more work in this field whether it is coaching or just conducting workshops...
no matter how tiring work may be... i think i enjoy what i do and thankfully i get to do what i enjoy too!
i am glad that my time these days are divided neatly between coaching debates and drama... really, it's been so far so good... *pat on my own back*
both my competition teams for debates have gone into quarters... meaning they are top eight of the entire pack... that's very very good for me... cos it has not been easy...
my drama students are ever so endearing... i think i have been overly cranky and snapping at them a lot this year... *reminder to self* must make it up to them... they have been screamed, yelled and ranted at... i would hate me if i were in their shoes... that said, the team had a great showing at their first ever syf (mine too!)... hope all goes well...
so what's left for work?
drama-wise... got to execute work plan for second half of the year and also plan for 2010
debates? broaden the pasture... really hope to take on more work in this field whether it is coaching or just conducting workshops...
no matter how tiring work may be... i think i enjoy what i do and thankfully i get to do what i enjoy too!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
i am missing...
1) training with the x-men... the very first debate team that i coached... they are my pride and joy... each and every one of them are so dear and precious to me... my firstborns, the ones who would lay down their lives as long as sir coach needs them to...
2) jg 2009... what a year it has been... to have both my teams face up against each other... i think the quarters match marked this competition for me... a proud father of my own team and my student's team...
3) my bv girls... just did tech run for syf today... they finally hit the essence of the script... not written fantastically but executed flawlessly... whatever result we get, they are gold medalists already!
4) doing silly things at silly times on silly days... haha... driving to town to just shop in one store then rushing off to work again... silly right?
5) dragonboat training... never touch paddle for three weeks liao... having withdrawal...
2) jg 2009... what a year it has been... to have both my teams face up against each other... i think the quarters match marked this competition for me... a proud father of my own team and my student's team...
3) my bv girls... just did tech run for syf today... they finally hit the essence of the script... not written fantastically but executed flawlessly... whatever result we get, they are gold medalists already!
4) doing silly things at silly times on silly days... haha... driving to town to just shop in one store then rushing off to work again... silly right?
5) dragonboat training... never touch paddle for three weeks liao... having withdrawal...
Friday, March 27, 2009
a friday for recollection...
it's been a long time since i got the morning off... a bit too long in fact... granted that i have work till late tonight (which i'm perfectly fine with), having a morning off to do 'nothing' is just nice...
well it's a morning of recollection cos i just want to remember some things... good things...
1) bought a new man toy... haha... it's an ipod this time round... then dinner in a weird corner of ngee ann city basement food court... driving home then cutting two lanes to turn into florist... hehe... all worth it!
2) falling ill and getting a stiff neck at the same time... people around me just kept fussing about how i need to take care of myself... perfect excuse to whine to the father... haha... hey! i am a child at heart...
3) debate... both schools going up against each other in quarters... it's going to be interesting watching the coaches actually... the sideshow as i have termed it... *note to self* buy coffee... evil laugh...
4) sitting in the car and watching lady gaga... you have to join club mazda to know what i mean... haha
5) pay cheques! i think i got paid almost every day of the week since sat for different assignments and events... ka-ching ka-ching ka-ching... i love month ends...
well it's a morning of recollection cos i just want to remember some things... good things...
1) bought a new man toy... haha... it's an ipod this time round... then dinner in a weird corner of ngee ann city basement food court... driving home then cutting two lanes to turn into florist... hehe... all worth it!
2) falling ill and getting a stiff neck at the same time... people around me just kept fussing about how i need to take care of myself... perfect excuse to whine to the father... haha... hey! i am a child at heart...
3) debate... both schools going up against each other in quarters... it's going to be interesting watching the coaches actually... the sideshow as i have termed it... *note to self* buy coffee... evil laugh...
4) sitting in the car and watching lady gaga... you have to join club mazda to know what i mean... haha
5) pay cheques! i think i got paid almost every day of the week since sat for different assignments and events... ka-ching ka-ching ka-ching... i love month ends...
Sunday, March 22, 2009
第三者的第三者
我简单回答一句还好
你点头微笑
说过得好就好
你不自然的礼貌
不停摆弄手腕的表
你想说的我已明了
我想现在的她很快乐
希望你晓得这样做不值得
虽然我们曾爱过
她也曾是第三者
但我不会让自己再重蹈覆辙
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我
并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的
就别让自己再犯错
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
我想现在的她很快乐
希望你晓得这样做不值得
虽然我们曾爱过
她也曾是第三者
但我不会让自己再重蹈覆辙
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我
并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的
就别让自己再犯错
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
SOS!
i have been stabbed! in the back no less...
so the next time you see me, just pull out the daggers that you've put in? thanks!
so the next time you see me, just pull out the daggers that you've put in? thanks!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
happy thoughts...
too much has happened recently... without a shadow of doubt, i am on a whirlwond of emotions everyday, it's a roller-coaster right every living second... but here are some happy thoughts that are keeping me going...
1) getting in to quarters for debates... not just my team but another team that is under my contract... two out of eight teams... that's a huge boost for reputation... definitely good publicity...
2) the friends... everyone, i am very thankful to have you there cushioning my falls... this year has been just bad... i sometimes feel like a parasite leeching off you guys... just happy that i am loved and protected...
3) sms-es... some things just cannot be expressed in words... haha... the irony of it all...
4) syf... teacher said... i think we stand a good chance... it's all coming together... sigh of relief...
1) getting in to quarters for debates... not just my team but another team that is under my contract... two out of eight teams... that's a huge boost for reputation... definitely good publicity...
2) the friends... everyone, i am very thankful to have you there cushioning my falls... this year has been just bad... i sometimes feel like a parasite leeching off you guys... just happy that i am loved and protected...
3) sms-es... some things just cannot be expressed in words... haha... the irony of it all...
4) syf... teacher said... i think we stand a good chance... it's all coming together... sigh of relief...
Thursday, March 12, 2009
i need just enough...
how do you know when too much becomes too much? where do we draw the line?
simple... when the following occurs...
1) your list of missed calls increases by the day because you are occupied, driving or just simply too tired to handle another business call...
2) you get into your email accounts and pray that you have less than five emails to answer and respond too...
3) your family has to live around your schedule. example? i need to be 'booked' to pay respects to my mother...
4) working seven days a week.
5) the only decent time you can meet anyone is 8.30pm and there are no gurantees of being on time...
6) your students know all the CDs you have in the car...
7) when a job is cancelled, you keep mum about it just so that you have some time off to yourself...
i think i've bitten off more than i can chew for the first quarter of 2009... the fatigue is setting in... BIG TIME!
simple... when the following occurs...
1) your list of missed calls increases by the day because you are occupied, driving or just simply too tired to handle another business call...
2) you get into your email accounts and pray that you have less than five emails to answer and respond too...
3) your family has to live around your schedule. example? i need to be 'booked' to pay respects to my mother...
4) working seven days a week.
5) the only decent time you can meet anyone is 8.30pm and there are no gurantees of being on time...
6) your students know all the CDs you have in the car...
7) when a job is cancelled, you keep mum about it just so that you have some time off to yourself...
i think i've bitten off more than i can chew for the first quarter of 2009... the fatigue is setting in... BIG TIME!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
letter to self...
hey you,
it's been a while since we spent quality time together. a lot has happened in the last couple of months. your career has taken on new flights that no one ever expected. who would have guessed that in 2009, you would be coaching and overseeing the training of five schools? stressful huh?
well, i'm glad that you have taken it into your stride and managing just fine. i'm glad that you have also built up a strong support system for yourself in every aspect of your career. congrats on the fruits of your labour.
but you know that i won't write unless something drastic happens.
you need to ask yourself: is it really worth it?
yes, it was a slap in the face but can you look beyond that? can you look beyond the beyond? love is blind but you are not. can you see what everyone else around you sees? are you just trying to pursue a noble ambition? in your aimless chase, you just look silly...
just let it go... for the third freaking time... IT IS NOT MEANT TO BE...
if you insist, here's a round of applause. you've put on a great show. i've enjoyed every moment of the drama. now take your bow and get off the stage. this show has ended, the lights are down, the curtains have fallen...
be who you are meant to be NOT who you want to be... live with it, what you want is far from what you are meant to be. you are meant to be that ice-cold killing machine that is capable of any feat. nothing is impossible for you. you know that the sky's the limit... why ground yourself when you should be soaring...
take a deep breath... hold it there... now let it go...
goodbye
the @ditor
it's been a while since we spent quality time together. a lot has happened in the last couple of months. your career has taken on new flights that no one ever expected. who would have guessed that in 2009, you would be coaching and overseeing the training of five schools? stressful huh?
well, i'm glad that you have taken it into your stride and managing just fine. i'm glad that you have also built up a strong support system for yourself in every aspect of your career. congrats on the fruits of your labour.
but you know that i won't write unless something drastic happens.
you need to ask yourself: is it really worth it?
yes, it was a slap in the face but can you look beyond that? can you look beyond the beyond? love is blind but you are not. can you see what everyone else around you sees? are you just trying to pursue a noble ambition? in your aimless chase, you just look silly...
just let it go... for the third freaking time... IT IS NOT MEANT TO BE...
if you insist, here's a round of applause. you've put on a great show. i've enjoyed every moment of the drama. now take your bow and get off the stage. this show has ended, the lights are down, the curtains have fallen...
be who you are meant to be NOT who you want to be... live with it, what you want is far from what you are meant to be. you are meant to be that ice-cold killing machine that is capable of any feat. nothing is impossible for you. you know that the sky's the limit... why ground yourself when you should be soaring...
take a deep breath... hold it there... now let it go...
goodbye
the @ditor
Sunday, March 1, 2009
温岚 - 傻瓜(新歌完整版MV)
when it comes to emotions, it's never a black or a white, a right or a wrong, a win or a loss...
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
farewell...
for those who are not in the know... my laptop decided to breakdown on me on friday the 13th... how exciting right? anyway the hard disk had to replaced and i finally got my laptop back today...
getting back the laptop from the service centre was a rather painful experience... not because the staff were mean or anything, it was just a case of losing everything in my hard disk...
things that have been lost include...
1) scripts that i've written over the last six months
2) music files and playlists
3) pictures that have captured my growth as a person for the last couple of years...
thinking back, so much has occurred... me moving out of the house, moving back, buying my car, becoming artistic director, career switch to debating and styling, rainbow fish, falling in love and out of love...
is this meant to be a brand-new start? that everything is lost and i have a clean slate to start all over again... but ain't it strange that i spent the last couple of hours recapturing whatever scrapes of memories that i could lay my hands on?
maybe i don't want to start anew... maybe i rather stand put and just be contented where i am as the world moves on...
getting back the laptop from the service centre was a rather painful experience... not because the staff were mean or anything, it was just a case of losing everything in my hard disk...
things that have been lost include...
1) scripts that i've written over the last six months
2) music files and playlists
3) pictures that have captured my growth as a person for the last couple of years...
thinking back, so much has occurred... me moving out of the house, moving back, buying my car, becoming artistic director, career switch to debating and styling, rainbow fish, falling in love and out of love...
is this meant to be a brand-new start? that everything is lost and i have a clean slate to start all over again... but ain't it strange that i spent the last couple of hours recapturing whatever scrapes of memories that i could lay my hands on?
maybe i don't want to start anew... maybe i rather stand put and just be contented where i am as the world moves on...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
the heat is on...
my mind has been clouded with too many things recently BUT i'm glad things are clearing up... and with clear skies and a clear mind... here's the lowdown of how stressed i am going to be...
27th feb: round two of julia gabriels (debates)... they had a great showing at round one so let's all hope that this will build on what they have already established...
13th mar: round three of julia gabriels
4th apr: day one of midc (jc debates)... two matches...
11th apr: day two of midc... another two matches...
14th apr: syf for bedok view...
don't be deceived by the dates... the training is super tiring!
on a separate note... it's so fun conducting the debating workshop at cat high... the boys are a bundle of joy!
27th feb: round two of julia gabriels (debates)... they had a great showing at round one so let's all hope that this will build on what they have already established...
13th mar: round three of julia gabriels
4th apr: day one of midc (jc debates)... two matches...
11th apr: day two of midc... another two matches...
14th apr: syf for bedok view...
don't be deceived by the dates... the training is super tiring!
on a separate note... it's so fun conducting the debating workshop at cat high... the boys are a bundle of joy!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
final journey...
i am truly thrilled by my syf piece... the girls are really working their butts off to get everything right... hopefully everything else will fall into place...
i cannot pinpoint a line of the script that i like... the entire piece just moves me... i remember how tough it was to write the ending... the crafting of their demise was close to mission impossible...
saw the off-book version of it over the last couple of sessions... very very happy!
on that note, i'm off to bed because i have to wake up at 6am again...
i cannot pinpoint a line of the script that i like... the entire piece just moves me... i remember how tough it was to write the ending... the crafting of their demise was close to mission impossible...
saw the off-book version of it over the last couple of sessions... very very happy!
on that note, i'm off to bed because i have to wake up at 6am again...
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
giving thanks...
for a marvellous monday...
- kickstarted a new workshop series for a local school... very pleased with the response
- had a great training session... very happy that students were responsive
- reviewed last friday's competition with my students
- confirmed a job with my long-time client but sharing some of the load with a friend... if not really overloaded...
for a terrific tuesday...
- waking up at 7.30am to play driver... haha...
- performance in a school hall that had air-conditioning... shiok la... teachers and children were surprisingly responsive...
- finally did a full run for final journey... looks good!
- went shopping for birthday present then dinner at taka... it was more funny than fun... laughed a lot...
for a wonderful wednesday...
- another early morning but not too bad...
- cheap canteen food... quite tasty too!
- worked an hour but getting two hours' pay!
- met new batch of minions... bad but not that bad...
- dinner with mini-me and gerald... nice chillout and winding down after a long day
- oh, GNC is having a two-for-the-price-of-one promotion... yeah! myoplex stockup!
- cleared bulk of paperwork...
good qi! good qi! good qi!
- kickstarted a new workshop series for a local school... very pleased with the response
- had a great training session... very happy that students were responsive
- reviewed last friday's competition with my students
- confirmed a job with my long-time client but sharing some of the load with a friend... if not really overloaded...
for a terrific tuesday...
- waking up at 7.30am to play driver... haha...
- performance in a school hall that had air-conditioning... shiok la... teachers and children were surprisingly responsive...
- finally did a full run for final journey... looks good!
- went shopping for birthday present then dinner at taka... it was more funny than fun... laughed a lot...
for a wonderful wednesday...
- another early morning but not too bad...
- cheap canteen food... quite tasty too!
- worked an hour but getting two hours' pay!
- met new batch of minions... bad but not that bad...
- dinner with mini-me and gerald... nice chillout and winding down after a long day
- oh, GNC is having a two-for-the-price-of-one promotion... yeah! myoplex stockup!
- cleared bulk of paperwork...
good qi! good qi! good qi!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
all work and no play...
i asked myself if i took too big a bite of the 2009 work pie...
as of now, the battle wounds are as follows...
drama: coaching two schools... one preparing for a major musical in April, another preparing for competition end-march then they move on to a major musical in july. this means non-stop rehearsals till july...
debates: coaching two schools... workshops for another two schools (and possibly a third)... first school goes into competition this friday... competition will drag on for a couple of months if they go all the way till the end... other school's new intake comes in this week which translates into intensive training to bring them up to par. as for the two schools i workshop... thank goodness it's only an hour each session...
so all weekday afternoons are taken up, saturday mornings too... then what about weekday mornings and sunday?
here goes...
weekday mornings: either teaching workshops for SDC, giving talks for HPB, doing shows for ETC or training for DB (gym and cardio)
sundays: giving tuition in the mornings and dragonboat in the afternoon...
so those who want a piece of me... book early... or catch me during the late night... haha!
as of now, the battle wounds are as follows...
drama: coaching two schools... one preparing for a major musical in April, another preparing for competition end-march then they move on to a major musical in july. this means non-stop rehearsals till july...
debates: coaching two schools... workshops for another two schools (and possibly a third)... first school goes into competition this friday... competition will drag on for a couple of months if they go all the way till the end... other school's new intake comes in this week which translates into intensive training to bring them up to par. as for the two schools i workshop... thank goodness it's only an hour each session...
so all weekday afternoons are taken up, saturday mornings too... then what about weekday mornings and sunday?
here goes...
weekday mornings: either teaching workshops for SDC, giving talks for HPB, doing shows for ETC or training for DB (gym and cardio)
sundays: giving tuition in the mornings and dragonboat in the afternoon...
so those who want a piece of me... book early... or catch me during the late night... haha!
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
a whole new world...
will be directing aladdin this year for a local school... so it is mandatory that i flood myself with 'a whole new world'... yes, i'm hoping that 2009 and the year of the ox will be a whole new world...
new in what ways?
i am still trying to figure out. maybe i'll just be the money-making machine that i have always been. well, it would be nice to go on the journey with someone by my side but like someone once said, 'wow! you have so many friends to take care of you.'
well, i guess someone's right... when all else fails, my circle of friends are there to cushion my fall. so do i need someone?
new in what ways?
i am still trying to figure out. maybe i'll just be the money-making machine that i have always been. well, it would be nice to go on the journey with someone by my side but like someone once said, 'wow! you have so many friends to take care of you.'
well, i guess someone's right... when all else fails, my circle of friends are there to cushion my fall. so do i need someone?
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
shame on you bush whackers...
never been someone to thrash people so openly... but just wanted to share something i heard over bbc yesterday...
bush moved the war on terror from america to enemy soil hence the war on iraq. he was the man behind the capture of saddam. today, people condemn him and celebrate a new era BUT one day, people will forget the money wasted, the lives sacrificed. however, they will remember bush as the one man who brought down the saddam regime and fought terrorism head-on.
now, I DARE YOU BUSH WHACKERS TO DO THE SAME...
the man is no longer president. cut him some slack...
bush moved the war on terror from america to enemy soil hence the war on iraq. he was the man behind the capture of saddam. today, people condemn him and celebrate a new era BUT one day, people will forget the money wasted, the lives sacrificed. however, they will remember bush as the one man who brought down the saddam regime and fought terrorism head-on.
now, I DARE YOU BUSH WHACKERS TO DO THE SAME...
the man is no longer president. cut him some slack...
Sunday, January 18, 2009
previously...
back in 2007, i started working on a research paper. this paper never had a conclusion. the reason was simple. i didn't need the paper. it was all done in vain. i had to shelf my plans for an overseas masters.
fast forward to january 2009... i know that my dad would prefer that i not go anywhere and stay put in singapore. but the paper is more than going away for a higher education. on it, i placed my hopes and ambitions. it was meant to be a new beginning.
malcolm always asked me when we were backstage what i wanted?
so what do i want? i want to keep learning, keep writing, keep living. the purpose of an education is to fill an empty mind with an open one. there are a million thoughts racing through my mind but strangely each time i sit down in front of my research materials, peace and tranquility overwhelms me.
guess i was born a geek and meant to grow up to be a nerd... haha
fast forward to january 2009... i know that my dad would prefer that i not go anywhere and stay put in singapore. but the paper is more than going away for a higher education. on it, i placed my hopes and ambitions. it was meant to be a new beginning.
malcolm always asked me when we were backstage what i wanted?
so what do i want? i want to keep learning, keep writing, keep living. the purpose of an education is to fill an empty mind with an open one. there are a million thoughts racing through my mind but strangely each time i sit down in front of my research materials, peace and tranquility overwhelms me.
guess i was born a geek and meant to grow up to be a nerd... haha
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
idea hor?
good idea: cut down on clubbing expenses by going super early for free club entry, not drinking, driving (save on cab).
bad idea: having two hours between show and running off to buy a $350 toy
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good idea: come home early on a sunday night to spend some time chatting with the father and catching up on sleep
bad idea: staying out every day till three in the morning since wed... so my dad has not seen me for about 100 hours...
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good idea: maintain a neutral stand about everything
bad idea: hand your phone over to your friends so that they can mess around with your sms-es
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good idea: drive to work
bad idea: parking at work... my parking was a whopping 17 bucks! my heart skipped a beat
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good idea: organise a dinner for three
really good idea: pretend to be on msn or in your own world
extremely good idea: keep eating so that you don't become a lamp-post
bad idea: having two hours between show and running off to buy a $350 toy
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good idea: come home early on a sunday night to spend some time chatting with the father and catching up on sleep
bad idea: staying out every day till three in the morning since wed... so my dad has not seen me for about 100 hours...
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good idea: maintain a neutral stand about everything
bad idea: hand your phone over to your friends so that they can mess around with your sms-es
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good idea: drive to work
bad idea: parking at work... my parking was a whopping 17 bucks! my heart skipped a beat
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good idea: organise a dinner for three
really good idea: pretend to be on msn or in your own world
extremely good idea: keep eating so that you don't become a lamp-post
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
tough questions
in life, no one has all the answers. some questions just cannot have an answer. i present to you some tough questions. how would you answer them?
1) how's your day?
2) are we drifting apart?
3) so where do we go from here?
4) why do you love me so much?
5) are you afraid of losing me?
6) can i say no?
1) how's your day?
2) are we drifting apart?
3) so where do we go from here?
4) why do you love me so much?
5) are you afraid of losing me?
6) can i say no?
Saturday, January 3, 2009
snapshot of love... version two...
sweet
superficial
weird
haha
lol
go away
hugs
gosh
sleepy
tired
thanks
goodbye
and this is love...
superficial
weird
haha
lol
go away
hugs
gosh
sleepy
tired
thanks
goodbye
and this is love...
Thursday, January 1, 2009
long long ago...
in a land far far away, there lived a prince. this prince was not just any ordinary prince. he was the meanest, the most cruel prince ever lived. in fact, he was so full of bile that rumour had it that venom ran in his blood and his heart was made of stone.
one night, while convening with his closest group of advisors (the council he called them), a question was posed to him, 'if you had only one wish, what would it be?' he thought about it carefully. he had everything he wanted, every thing that he fancied, he could obtain with a wield of the iron spectre he held in his hand. in all earnesty, he looked them in the eye and said, 'i want to know if i still have the ability to love.'
the council could hardly believe what they heard. is this the same prince who mocked the lowly, scoff the grotesque and spits on the downtrodden? then the wisest among them spoke, 'if you want to love again, you will need a heart of flesh. a heart that beats and feels.'
'where can i find this heart of flesh?' he asked.
the council members had no answer for him. no one that night could furnish him a reply but the stone-hearted prince was not about to give up. armed with a stallion, he rode off in search of a heart of flesh.
his first stop was a village. a little hamlet tucked away by the shadow of night. a place that was far beyond the reach of his kingdom. it was a sight that he never seen. laughter, smiles, kisses, hugs. silk, satin, cotton, linen. he asked, he questioned, he inquired. where was this elusive heart of flesh? not there apparently. no one there could offer him any clue. eat, drink and be merry. that was their proclamation.
the prince then thought, perhaps a decree would hasten his search. a decree he wanted, a decree he got. like a wildfire, news went from town to town, village to village. some came with a heart of gold, others offered a beating heart. he fancied none of them.
after searching high and low, far and wide, the prince finally threw in the towel. this search has brought nothing but tears and cracks on his heart of stone. his heart cannot be replaced. he was destined to live with his heart of stone simply because only stone could resist the venom that flowed within his veins. he had failed in his quest.
like every tale, he lived happily after.
one night, while convening with his closest group of advisors (the council he called them), a question was posed to him, 'if you had only one wish, what would it be?' he thought about it carefully. he had everything he wanted, every thing that he fancied, he could obtain with a wield of the iron spectre he held in his hand. in all earnesty, he looked them in the eye and said, 'i want to know if i still have the ability to love.'
the council could hardly believe what they heard. is this the same prince who mocked the lowly, scoff the grotesque and spits on the downtrodden? then the wisest among them spoke, 'if you want to love again, you will need a heart of flesh. a heart that beats and feels.'
'where can i find this heart of flesh?' he asked.
the council members had no answer for him. no one that night could furnish him a reply but the stone-hearted prince was not about to give up. armed with a stallion, he rode off in search of a heart of flesh.
his first stop was a village. a little hamlet tucked away by the shadow of night. a place that was far beyond the reach of his kingdom. it was a sight that he never seen. laughter, smiles, kisses, hugs. silk, satin, cotton, linen. he asked, he questioned, he inquired. where was this elusive heart of flesh? not there apparently. no one there could offer him any clue. eat, drink and be merry. that was their proclamation.
the prince then thought, perhaps a decree would hasten his search. a decree he wanted, a decree he got. like a wildfire, news went from town to town, village to village. some came with a heart of gold, others offered a beating heart. he fancied none of them.
after searching high and low, far and wide, the prince finally threw in the towel. this search has brought nothing but tears and cracks on his heart of stone. his heart cannot be replaced. he was destined to live with his heart of stone simply because only stone could resist the venom that flowed within his veins. he had failed in his quest.
like every tale, he lived happily after.
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