survivor... outwit, outplay, outlast

i have been a huge fan of the recent season of survivor... the backstabs, the blindside, the lies... makes good tv! even the most 'honest' of them all was not all that honest...

will i be more than a survivor? can i outwit, outplay or outlast... perhaps i'm just at a point that i'm feeling pretty vulnerable... things don't seem to be going to well, some are even spinning out of control... i'm not enjoying life as much as i did... i know life is good but is life happy?

not quite... perhaps madonna's right... that we are living in a material world and i'm (or, rather we are all...) material girls...

either we want materials like leather, silk, diamonds, platinum... or we are made up of materials like plastic, metal, water... cold, hard and without direction...

me is drowning...

had six hours of rehearsals today... my conclusion?

i suck at singing and remembering steps... while others hit notes and pitch perfectly, i need a lot more time to get it right and it is tiring trying to play catch up...

time to work doubly hard and get everything in place before monday...

I CAN DO IT!!!