a friday for recollection...

it's been a long time since i got the morning off... a bit too long in fact... granted that i have work till late tonight (which i'm perfectly fine with), having a morning off to do 'nothing' is just nice...

well it's a morning of recollection cos i just want to remember some things... good things...

1) bought a new man toy... haha... it's an ipod this time round... then dinner in a weird corner of ngee ann city basement food court... driving home then cutting two lanes to turn into florist... hehe... all worth it!

2) falling ill and getting a stiff neck at the same time... people around me just kept fussing about how i need to take care of myself... perfect excuse to whine to the father... haha... hey! i am a child at heart...

3) debate... both schools going up against each other in quarters... it's going to be interesting watching the coaches actually... the sideshow as i have termed it... *note to self* buy coffee... evil laugh...

4) sitting in the car and watching lady gaga... you have to join club mazda to know what i mean... haha

5) pay cheques! i think i got paid almost every day of the week since sat for different assignments and events... ka-ching ka-ching ka-ching... i love month ends...

第三者的第三者

我简单回答一句还好
你点头微笑
说过得好就好
你不自然的礼貌
不停摆弄手腕的表
你想说的我已明了

我想现在的她很快乐
希望你晓得这样做不值得
虽然我们曾爱过
她也曾是第三者
但我不会让自己再重蹈覆辙

我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我
并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的
就别让自己再犯错
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
我想现在的她很快乐

希望你晓得这样做不值得
虽然我们曾爱过
她也曾是第三者
但我不会让自己再重蹈覆辙
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我
并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的
就别让自己再犯错
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者

SOS!

i have been stabbed! in the back no less...

so the next time you see me, just pull out the daggers that you've put in? thanks!

happy thoughts...

too much has happened recently... without a shadow of doubt, i am on a whirlwond of emotions everyday, it's a roller-coaster right every living second... but here are some happy thoughts that are keeping me going...

1) getting in to quarters for debates... not just my team but another team that is under my contract... two out of eight teams... that's a huge boost for reputation... definitely good publicity...

2) the friends... everyone, i am very thankful to have you there cushioning my falls... this year has been just bad... i sometimes feel like a parasite leeching off you guys... just happy that i am loved and protected...

3) sms-es... some things just cannot be expressed in words... haha... the irony of it all...

4) syf... teacher said... i think we stand a good chance... it's all coming together... sigh of relief...

i need just enough...

how do you know when too much becomes too much? where do we draw the line?

simple... when the following occurs...

1) your list of missed calls increases by the day because you are occupied, driving or just simply too tired to handle another business call...

2) you get into your email accounts and pray that you have less than five emails to answer and respond too...

3) your family has to live around your schedule. example? i need to be 'booked' to pay respects to my mother...

4) working seven days a week.

5) the only decent time you can meet anyone is 8.30pm and there are no gurantees of being on time...

6) your students know all the CDs you have in the car...

7) when a job is cancelled, you keep mum about it just so that you have some time off to yourself...

i think i've bitten off more than i can chew for the first quarter of 2009... the fatigue is setting in... BIG TIME!

letter to self...

hey you,

it's been a while since we spent quality time together. a lot has happened in the last couple of months. your career has taken on new flights that no one ever expected. who would have guessed that in 2009, you would be coaching and overseeing the training of five schools? stressful huh?

well, i'm glad that you have taken it into your stride and managing just fine. i'm glad that you have also built up a strong support system for yourself in every aspect of your career. congrats on the fruits of your labour.

but you know that i won't write unless something drastic happens.

you need to ask yourself: is it really worth it?

yes, it was a slap in the face but can you look beyond that? can you look beyond the beyond? love is blind but you are not. can you see what everyone else around you sees? are you just trying to pursue a noble ambition? in your aimless chase, you just look silly...

just let it go... for the third freaking time... IT IS NOT MEANT TO BE...

if you insist, here's a round of applause. you've put on a great show. i've enjoyed every moment of the drama. now take your bow and get off the stage. this show has ended, the lights are down, the curtains have fallen...

be who you are meant to be NOT who you want to be... live with it, what you want is far from what you are meant to be. you are meant to be that ice-cold killing machine that is capable of any feat. nothing is impossible for you. you know that the sky's the limit... why ground yourself when you should be soaring...

take a deep breath... hold it there... now let it go...

goodbye

the @ditor

温岚 - 傻瓜(新歌完整版MV)

when it comes to emotions, it's never a black or a white, a right or a wrong, a win or a loss...