Tuesday, January 3, 2012
wow oh wow
just dropping a few lines that i'm good and well...
career's good... sporting life's good... family life is still the same...
love life... shambles... i really don't know. something must be wrong with me. i cannot (for the life of me) hold down a relationship. maybe it's in the stars. or life is really fair... you cannot have it all... it really hurts.
Monday, October 4, 2010
monday blues
mummy and me had a 7.30am show this morning... my car was down so i took mummy's car home last night and picked her up this morning...
monday morning being monday morning, we were both pretty zonked out... but anyway, mummy seems to be coping pretty well with you growing in her. she commented that the bump is rather visible (or maybe she is just bloated from all the eating!) good thing is that she is not going through all the morning sickness and puking and what not's... that's a good thing right? is that a sign of your good behaviour to come?
well, grow strong and healthy! uncle e can't wait to meet you soon...
Thursday, September 30, 2010
i'm back
tis' me... back to blogging... well, last couple of weeks have really taken a turn... interesting events that will change many lives... and that is a key to my return to the world of blogs... one day, i will look back and be glad that i pen down all these...
according to ms, it's week 7... well, she found out when it was about week 4/5... yup, it's the news of a new baby...
long story short... the father of the child has been giving her a terrible time but i am glad that everyone who knew ms rallied around her. and she finally decided on her birthday... 26th sep... that she was going to keep the baby...
in the last couple of days, she has grown so much stronger as a person. taking control over her life and doing what needs to be done in order to protect her, her baby and her family...
well, little one, uncle e will see you in about another eight months!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
it's been a long long time...
1) sever ties with the family: i'm done with wiping people's asses and not be treated with any ounce of respect after that. coming home everyday is just coming home to a motel. i come back, i shower, watch a bit of tv, go into my room... no more conversations... i'm just not interested anymore... am already scouting for a new place... hope to move out by end of 2011...
2) dragonboat: dragonboaters have no life... actually we do, it's called dragonboat. water training on sat and sun, hitting the gym four times a week, twice for cardio, twice for weights... not bad... getting into the hang of it and the results show... won my first ever sporting medal... congrats to me!
3) work: it's been nothing less than amazing... it's been a good and constant flow. money's been good... everyone will tell me that it can be better but i am contented.
4) love: no mistakes for 2010... there were a few close errors but overall, i've been more cautious about the whole relationship thing...
not sure when i will pen down thoughts again... but in closing, my whole family is up for sale for a dollar. give me a dollar and you can have these imbeciles that i have to share a surname with. am seriously considering changing my surname to that of my mother's... just an afterthought!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
time management
ask any man on the street what is most important to them... their reply will be family, friends, work and the list goes on... but how often do our replies reflect the way we manage our lives?
if we claim that family is the most important aspect of holistic living, then are we spending enough time at home? are we doing enough at home?
just this week, i got myself into a mess... well, i decided that the mess needs to be cleared up because it involves someone important. how important? important enough for me to set aside an hour to doing something for the person in question.
what about you? i challenge you to take 5% of your daily time to love someone important, be it family, friend or partner... makes a world of difference!
Saturday, August 8, 2009
JJ林俊傑/蔡卓妍 ~ 【小酒窩】MV
JJ林俊杰/蔡卓妍 (阿SA) ~ 小酒窝
词:王雅君
曲:林俊杰
(JJ)我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
(sa)幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
(合)小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
(sa)幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
(合)小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生整完成的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
decisions...
1) to place my dad before anyone or anything else...
2) to devote myself to doing well in my career...
3) to be the friend that all my friends deserve...
4) to let the past live in the past and not attempt to recapture that which is history...
Friday, May 29, 2009
new pants or new shoes?
A: new pants! you don't need new shoes cos i'll carry you to wherever you want to go...
aawww... major mush...
Thursday, May 7, 2009
i should be a prophet!
then i scrutinized the freaking letter to find that they used the entire backpage to inform me of the nine ways i could make payment... granted that there was a number for enquiries (but like every good gahmen agency, you will be placed on hold and made to listen to annoying music)... not a single email or word about how one could argue their stance...
very very disappointing... how typical of the local authorities... you are wrong until you can show that you are innocent... i used to be proud to tell people that i am singaporean... slowly, i'm not so sure anymore...
anyway back to the prophet bit, i was like... maybe i should go to the website and look up a relevant email that i can write to... well, that email does not exist... exactly what i predicted!
this little episode is going to turn out very interesting...
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
work rant... (part two)
Hi Edwin
Many thanks, once again, for all your excellent work with the team. I know you are keen to work with the students this Friday and I very much appreciate your commitment to DOS. I have now made alternative arrangements for Friday and will be happy to stay in College while you work with the debaters. I would suggest, however, that 4 hours training immediately before a hard Saturday of debating is too long and would ask you to finish by 5.00 pm.
guess what? the top teams (namely acjc, rjc, vjc, hci) all train like there is no day or night... 4pm to 11pm daily for a month during competition season is not uncommon... you did freaking drama, how would you know what is too long? have you ever been a competitive debator?
I think it's important that we try to stick to our published schedules, both from the teachers' perspectives as well as the students'.
yes! your schedule is important... the students as well... hmm, i think we are missing out the coach here...
I am keenly aware of the criticism from last year,
criticism? show me! no one complained when we beat vjc... no one complained when we made it to top eight! no one complained when one of the speakers made it to top twenty speakers and got shortlisted for national team selection! no one complained when i transformed four non-debators into competition speakers! screw you and your criticism!
and do not wish parents of students to be caught unawares by last-minute practices.
the students have been warned of the commitment levels when they were selected and they have been told to clear it with their parents. in addition, i have never held students back against their wishes. if they want to leave early, they can.
Obviously the last-minute effect also applies to teachers in charge who often have other plans during the evenings.
hey, look here! i have two debate competition teams and one school for drama. i offer you extra trainings because the demands are much higher. do you not think i have plans too? do you not think i have to cancel MY plans just so that i can make time for the teams?
I have asked S***a to keep us informed about planned activities, and P***r, A****n and myself will be happy to work within these plans so long as we are given sufficient notice.
you freaking find out that you are through to quarter finals on tuesday morning, i tell you we need the extra training on wednesday. is there sufficient notice for me too? there are three of you! there is one of me... guess who is at the losing end?
Cheers
F U!
N**k
go to hell... and bring your other two imbecile friends with you...
work rant...
why?
i'm disappointed... the students don't seemed at all interested or motivated to put in any quality in their routine training. yes, granted that the main competition season is over, but that does not mean that we just rest on our laurels and not strive to improve... second week in a row, i have heard nothing but trash on the debating floor... pure crap! to think that each team had competition speakers on them... debators that i invested my sweat and blood into... yet the material they offer is shameful... what did i do wrong? what happened to the passion and love for debating?
i'm disillusioned... ever since the three stooges took over, nothing has gone smooth. i have to train my team like some underground spy force. they want to claim the glory but are unwilling to put in any effort to better the society... i receive emails with no word of appreciation but dripping with undercurrents... why do i even bother? i should just view the whole thing as a paying job... do what i need to, then scoot... like someone commented today, it's ironic how someone from acjc is putting in so much effort and the teachers cannot be bothered... yes, save your own skins and your little behinds... after all, that's all you care about anyway...
time to start afresh, at least i know that i can whip teams into shape in under two months... sometimes love just ain't enough...
Sunday, May 3, 2009
thoughts... diving deeper...
parties, gatherings, swine flu, new friends, new faces, new events, new stresses, new challenges...
2009 has been nothing short of dramatic... the road ahead is a blur... do i like it? no! am i going to attempt to embrace it? yes... am i scared? you can bet your last dime i am... there are just too many uncertainities... sometimes i question a little too much... perhaps really, i should just take one day at a time...
what's the year been? routine i guess... the so-called exciting and random life that one would expect of a freelance is settling into a pattern too... stability is good... boring is sometimes safe... done too many dangerous things... made too many reckless decisions...
note to self: slow down... enjoy each moment...everything will be fine...
ten years ago, i was passionate... on fire to make a difference... ten years later, jaded, cynical and somewhat too comfortable in a mould... in church-speak, i need a breakthrough... how and where? so help me God...
Friday, April 24, 2009
thoughts...
just set me thinking about a lot of things that are happening around me...
sometimes i think too much... sometimes i don't think at all... so how?
to think or not to think?
things that i am thinking of...
1) masters
2) dragonboat
3) career, or the lack of it
4) lifestyle / expenses
5) relationships
i want to take a book... sit on a field and just read, then be able to go into a room and have an interesting conversation about it... i miss studying or rather, i miss the experience of learning... the world has far too much politics and powerplay... a bit more than what i can handle...
perhaps running away for a while would really help... sigh...
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
confessions of a workaholic
i am glad that my time these days are divided neatly between coaching debates and drama... really, it's been so far so good... *pat on my own back*
both my competition teams for debates have gone into quarters... meaning they are top eight of the entire pack... that's very very good for me... cos it has not been easy...
my drama students are ever so endearing... i think i have been overly cranky and snapping at them a lot this year... *reminder to self* must make it up to them... they have been screamed, yelled and ranted at... i would hate me if i were in their shoes... that said, the team had a great showing at their first ever syf (mine too!)... hope all goes well...
so what's left for work?
drama-wise... got to execute work plan for second half of the year and also plan for 2010
debates? broaden the pasture... really hope to take on more work in this field whether it is coaching or just conducting workshops...
no matter how tiring work may be... i think i enjoy what i do and thankfully i get to do what i enjoy too!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
i am missing...
2) jg 2009... what a year it has been... to have both my teams face up against each other... i think the quarters match marked this competition for me... a proud father of my own team and my student's team...
3) my bv girls... just did tech run for syf today... they finally hit the essence of the script... not written fantastically but executed flawlessly... whatever result we get, they are gold medalists already!
4) doing silly things at silly times on silly days... haha... driving to town to just shop in one store then rushing off to work again... silly right?
5) dragonboat training... never touch paddle for three weeks liao... having withdrawal...
Friday, March 27, 2009
a friday for recollection...
well it's a morning of recollection cos i just want to remember some things... good things...
1) bought a new man toy... haha... it's an ipod this time round... then dinner in a weird corner of ngee ann city basement food court... driving home then cutting two lanes to turn into florist... hehe... all worth it!
2) falling ill and getting a stiff neck at the same time... people around me just kept fussing about how i need to take care of myself... perfect excuse to whine to the father... haha... hey! i am a child at heart...
3) debate... both schools going up against each other in quarters... it's going to be interesting watching the coaches actually... the sideshow as i have termed it... *note to self* buy coffee... evil laugh...
4) sitting in the car and watching lady gaga... you have to join club mazda to know what i mean... haha
5) pay cheques! i think i got paid almost every day of the week since sat for different assignments and events... ka-ching ka-ching ka-ching... i love month ends...
Sunday, March 22, 2009
第三者的第三者
我简单回答一句还好
你点头微笑
说过得好就好
你不自然的礼貌
不停摆弄手腕的表
你想说的我已明了
我想现在的她很快乐
希望你晓得这样做不值得
虽然我们曾爱过
她也曾是第三者
但我不会让自己再重蹈覆辙
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我
并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的
就别让自己再犯错
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
我想现在的她很快乐
希望你晓得这样做不值得
虽然我们曾爱过
她也曾是第三者
但我不会让自己再重蹈覆辙
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
别再触碰我心里还未伤愈的角落
习惯一个人的我
并不是缺你不可
如果你是爱我的
就别让自己再犯错
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
我很快乐
请不要再说爱我
我已经把失去的当成了一种收获
悲伤的剧情太多
曾经都侵袭着我
所以我不再做
这第三者的第三者
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
SOS!
so the next time you see me, just pull out the daggers that you've put in? thanks!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
happy thoughts...
1) getting in to quarters for debates... not just my team but another team that is under my contract... two out of eight teams... that's a huge boost for reputation... definitely good publicity...
2) the friends... everyone, i am very thankful to have you there cushioning my falls... this year has been just bad... i sometimes feel like a parasite leeching off you guys... just happy that i am loved and protected...
3) sms-es... some things just cannot be expressed in words... haha... the irony of it all...
4) syf... teacher said... i think we stand a good chance... it's all coming together... sigh of relief...